Tag Archives: Waiting

The Waiting Game: Meditations on Finding My Purpose

Hey Speakerz! Woah. Okay wasn’t it just Monday? I mean, seriously? It’s time for our next topic of the week already?! YES! This week’s topic is on what it means to follow your dreams, purpose and wholeness. Let’s dive in, shall we?

This week, I spent a lot of time being down on myself. I constantly felt as though what I was doing wasn’t enough. I wasn’t moving fast enough. I wasn’t making as much money as I wanted to. But that wasn’t really what got to me. I realized that I was working so very hard and approaching burnout because I was trying to cover up loneliness. We’re all human. I love myself and my alone, but humans are social creatures. We’re meant to live collectively in some form or fashion. So I used avoidance. But when coming face to face with the truth, I didn’t die, go up in flames or wallow in tears. I just admitted the hard truth and found self care. In that self care, I found more of myself than I had known before.

I have such a love of being multi-talented. I love that I can do so many things. The kicker is, it’s a gift and a curse. If I’m not doing more than 2 projects at one time, I get bored and when I’m bored, I self sabotage, so I overwork myself. We all have our patterns. What’s yours? How do you self care? How do you find your purpose and not only find it, but live in it? 

I recently re-watched the Matrix Films. In it, many characters talk about purpose. It is the importance of fulfilling purpose that drives them. So I thought about mine. Each individual on this planet has SO much to offer the world. How do we ever think or believe that we aren’t enough?! We are the world! Literally! 

I was also struck by the concept of waiting. People “wait” for the right romantic partner, we “wait” for our one shot at greatness, we “wait” to eat better. The problem with waiting is that we wait for so long that we wind up forgetting what it is that we even wanted! So why not prepare, train and work towards the many moments in which we shine and show our humanity to whoever is around? We are enough. We are beautiful. We are human. We deserve the work of our purpose. 
Love Always,

Damali Speaks Xx

Advertisements